Hi!
My name’s Laura and it’s been 2 years since my last DKA!
As
strange as this may sound, staying out of A&E for two years is quite an
achievement for me! If I turned up now I bet none of the staff would say; “Oh
you’re back again!” or recognise my face. Often I felt like a part of the
furniture. I even knew how to disable the annoying beep on the sliding scale machines.
Although
I’m proud of myself for all I have achieved so far, my blood sugars still aren’t
where they should be and this is having a huge knock on effect, physically and
emotionally.
Despite
numerous changes to my insulin regime, CGM loans, regular and lengthy
appointments with my (very patient) consultant and a diabetes educational programme, I’m not
getting any further towards good control – In fact my results show that I’m
going to opposite way!
I
knew diabetes wouldn’t be easy but for months now it has been a time consuming, energy draining, unresponsive
pain in the… pancreas!
My
a1c has crept up - My frustrations have also crept up with it (can you tell?)
Hypos
have become a regular occurrence - In the last 30 days 15% of my blood glucose
readings were hypos. Weight
management is distracting and affecting me… even losing a
few pounds is an impossible task.
It’s
been almost 11 years since my diagnosis and still I regularly wake up feeling
like I’ve not slept for weeks. I worry about falling off the diabetes wagon wheel and
getting crushed by complications. I still feel faint at the sight of injecting
myself… the bruises injections leave on my legs and stomach.
So soon I will start my six month insulin pump trial and hopefully this will be the
start of getting me back. I desperately want to feel like me again… I want to
be the bouncy, carefree, energetic ninja that I know is inside me! I
don’t want to feel that I’m taking one step forward and two steps back
anymore… I just want to keep stepping forwards.
Bring on team pump!!!! :)
Ninjabetic
x